There is a LOT of stuff going on in my life, and I’d love to write about it, but I can’t. Not because I’ve been legally barred from doing so, but because, frankly, sometimes doing the right thing means not doing anything. I would absolutely LOVE to vomit a 10,000,000 essay about my life. But just because I want to do it, and have the tools to really do it right, does not mean I should do it. So I won’t.
Today.
Someday, someday in the future, I shall write about the year of my 40th life on Earth. I will write it to wring out my soul, to cleanse my heart, and to give thanks for everything He has given me. Just not right now.
I’m more tired than I have been since basic training, but it’s a very good tired. Could things be better? Yup. Could things be worse, much much worse? Oh yeah.
I will sleep well tonight.
Best of luck to you, sir. :-]
Think I heard somewhere that sometimes doing the wrong thing is the right thing to do. But best of luck, I myself know I can’t publish everything I want on my blog short of figuring out a way to password protect some of it.
Don’t worry… take your time. Something tells me we’ll all be here ready to listen when you decide to share the story with us.
More material for the book. yay!
Nobody says you have to actually post what you write. If the act of writing is cathartic, write and then delete the document, or just squirrel it away somewhere if you think you may post it someday.
In any case, take your time. And sleep well.
Sometimes it is hard to know the right thing to do and even more difficult to actually do the right thing… (totally stole that from a cookie)
sleep well =)
We are here to listen when you can. Do the best you know how and run with it.
You are not dumb. What troubles you will come to an end. You”ll shrug it off and hopefully see what good came from it.
Even if it doesn’t. You have friends out here that will listen.
Major support from Sarasota, Fl!
God Bless you and Junior.
Sshhh…
Indeed – you show great skill in not doing something, when it’s so tempting to do.
wonderful japanese saying: “Don’t push the river, it flows by itself”
seems to apply more oft than not. yer ok Daniel, never doubt it.
/shibumi
Don’t worry. Its ok. We will wait.
Could be worse Daniel, ive just been sucked back into the World of Warcraft. An endless pit of sorrow that place is.
Your a fine gentleman and I really mean that.
Sometimes when you’re going through challenging times in your life it’s really hard to take the high ground and be the grown-up. Kudos to you for having a long-term perspective on this, and know that when everything has settled down, and you want to use us as your sounding board to get junk off your mind, we’ll be waiting.
-Del
One day at a time you’ll get to 41 and this shall be behind you
Speaking (once again) as someone who got divorced at 40, and who is now very happily married once more at 44, let me just say that I know it sucks. I also know it’s going to get better.
Oh, and I agree with what Clioratha said about writing. May I suggest Truecrypt? No need to delete it for it to be private. ;-]
Steve
Writing always helps. Just put away in a drawer somewhere. No one has to read it. Ever. But writing helps. Before blogs for everyone to read, people used to keep journals and private diaries. My 7-year-old son actually requested one with a key.
Also getting enough sleep. That helps, too.
(hug)
Daniel, do not worry, write whenever you have feel you can. But even if you do not, send us a wave sometimes, we will know, you are ok…or, at least you still have the wire
(BTW, a lighter topic: a word about the MMO: I did not have any goal in WOW until the BRK-1000. Now i have something to fight for there.
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Y’know, when I divorced I did write a very long journal. Years later, happily remarried, kids grown – it’s not worth reading or printing, I don’t think, even if it contains lessons.
The main lesson is that nobody knows how hard it is unless they’ve been through it, and that everyone survives and gets their sanity back within a few years. Not sure how many get their money back, but sanity is priceless. And it comes back even if life dishes out some other traumas at the same time.
You are so awesome!!!! Jen from up in NC
As someone who, just last week, for seemingly very similar reasons, made her blog unsearchable and unvisitable to all but herself… for the first time in 6 or 7 years and is also emerging into her 40th year and walking head-first into divorce with a child, I feel your pain.